Update from the future: Just to give you a preview of what is in this very long post: I am basically writing about my decision to stop using my car that I eventually did sell, and how I came to the decision. That’s basically it. If you’re looking for funny stories about farting and misspoken Japanese they’re not in this one. If you’re looking for quotes from transcendentalists and a dissertation on the advantages of bikes over cars, look no further.

Alright gang. We’re back.

I know, I know. It’s only been a week! Steven, you just wrote such a doozy, and now you’re coming right back around and giving us another other one, not a week later?

And to that I say, you bet your sweet bungus I am!

I’ve got things to tell you! And like I said, “A squid won’t cook itself,” well neither will a blog post write itself, and these things must be written, lest the moment pass, and they are forever gone. I believe, this is true with ideas, that with all ideas there is a certain window of action, that you have where you can seize an idea, and do something with it, make something out of it, or let it pass, and its moment will be gone. And perhaps you will have another chance at it, or perhaps not. This idea, the one I want to share with you now, is a fruit that has been maturing for some time, and I think it is now as ripe as it will ever be, and the time is as good as any to pluck it. So sit back, get comfortable, maybe grab a snack, some nice squid hearts, maybe a squid soufflé (I actually don’t know what a soufflé even is) and let me tell you about my little experiment in following my genius, and deciding to live life without a car.

The first thing I need to get at is the following your genius thing. I am not a genius, but I can follow it, and that is why I decided to stop driving my car for the month of March. Motorless March, I called it. I actually almost sold it, and even went to the length of calling up my dealer, taking it in to him, having him look it over, and then coming to his question, “Do you really want to sell this? Do you really really want to sell this?” and promising him that I’d really think it over, and after two of my close friends recommended that I try out a carless month first, and see how it goes, as a trial experiment, before fully plunging myself into the world of the no-car, only to find that it does not suit me all that much, and I am pained to go through the process of getting a new one, or to suffer with the ramifications of my poor and impulsive decision. But, while I did at their suggestion hold onto my car, prior to starting this experiment, I strongly suspected that I already knew what the outcome would be, and here we are, at the end of the month, and I can say that I was entirely correct in my suspicion. After an entire month without my car, I can say that not once, not a single time, did I think, “Man, I wish I could drive!” But what I did find myself thinking, time and time again, was the exact opposite, that I was glad that I didn’t have one. And so I will give you some examples, but you have already seen some, if you read my last post. On embarking on this experiment, somehow I had not even considered all of the merits of my decision to ditch the car and walk to school, but that came to me as I was writing that last post, and is even further support for the case of going without the car. So, I will give you some concrete examples, and what I’ve learned from this experiment, and the goals of this post then are two-fold – if this can be a lesson for you on following your genius, or a piece that challenges you to see your car in a new light, then I think I can say that this was a successful one!

First, on following your genius. I have mentioned genius a few times now, and what am I talking about? I am using genius in the way that our man Henry David Thoreau uses genius. I usually end my posts with quotes, but for this one, I need to give you a quote now, because this quote, primarily, along with some of Thoreau’s other compelling words on genius, was the catalyst, that brought me to cross that critical threshold between thought and action. So here is the quote:

“If one listens to the faintest but constant suggestions of his genius, which are certainly true, he sees not to what extremes, or even insanity, it may lead him; and yet that way, as he grows more resolute and faithful, his road lies. The faintest assured objection which one healthy man feels will at length prevail over the arguments and customs of mankind. No one ever followed his genius till it misled him. Though the result were bodily weakness, yet perhaps no one can say that the consequences were to be regretted, for there were a life in conformity to higher principles. If the day and the night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a fragrance like flowers and sweet-scented herbs, is more elastic, more starry, more immortal, – that is your success. All nature is your congratulation, and you have cause momentarily to bless yourself. The greatest gains and values are farthest from being appreciated. We easily come to doubt if they exist. We soon forget them. They are the highest reality. Perhaps the facts most astounding and most real are never communicated by man to man. The true harvest of my daily life is somewhat as intangible and indescribable as the tints of morning or evening. It is a little star-dust caught, a segment of the rainbow which I have clutched.”

It’s long, I know. Thoreau writes like this. Emerson does as well. Perhaps that’s why I am so enamored with them both. Thoreau is a man who catches star-dust, who does greet the day and night with joy, who felt bad for his jailers, when he was put into jail, for not paying taxes to the state of Massachusetts for something like seven years, because he did not support slavery, and Massachusetts was profiting off of and enabling the slave trade, at that time, and he felt that his jailers, after imprisoning him, thought that they had him confined – but he could not be confined, because in his heart he was free, much more than they, because while physically confined, spiritually he was as free as a bird. Actually, he thought they, and the state itself, were entirely pathetic, after that incident, as Thoreau was, taxes excepted, as good of or better than any citizen you could ask for, and was not in any way a threat to the state, and yet they imprisoned him. Thoreau lives by his genius, truly; that is one example, and another I could give is the whole fact that he moved out into the woods and lived there alone for two years, because he felt like he should, and he ended up writing the masterpiece, that this quote is from, that is Walden. I included the full length of this quote because I thought that, given that he includes them in the same passage, there must be a link between following genius, and catching star-dust, and when I think about this experiment, and even the outcomes of my walking to school, that there is a connection there.

So like I said, this quote is ultimately what got me to embark on this little carless experiment of mine. It is the reason why I pulled the trigger. About two or three months ago, I did something I had been meaning to do for a long time, and had never got around to, which was actually figured out exactly what my income and expenses were. Prior to this, I just knew that I was making more money than I was losing, and that was good enough for me. But I could only stand saying not being able to answer questions about my life financials so many times before I felt like it was necessary that I got the answers, and so I did, and I found that I was spending about 2万円 a month on car expenses, (about $200). I thought at that time, entirely jokingly, “Hey if I didn’t have a car, I’d save 2万円 a month!” And then this thought was followed by another, “But, of course, I need my car.” I can say now that not only did I not need my car, but in the same way that I was better off walking to school than driving, I am better off living without a car in all other aspects of my life, than having one.

In the days after I did that little, getting my affairs in order business, that thought of getting rid of the car kept coming back to me. I thought about all of the reasons why I needed my car – there weren’t many. I thought about all of the reasons I should give it up – there were many more. Why did I think I needed my car? Convenience, was one. Convenience on its own is hardly a good reason to do anything. Another, was freedom. Paradoxically enough, I found that I had more freedom without the car. That’s really it, in a nutshell. Why did I think I should give it up? This list is much longer. Obviously, for the environment. Also, for the savings. Those are good enough reasons, but there are other, more powerful, and less apparent reasons. I thought that, like walking to school, going without the car would put me outside of my comfort zone. After being here for as long as I have, as anyone inevitably finds themselves becoming after doing the same things for an extended period of time, I have gotten quite comfortable in many aspects of my life. I’m happy I can say that’s so, but if we take Emerson’s words, “People wish to be settled: only as far as they are unsettled is there any hope for them,” to heart, then it’s wise not to get too comfortable, and so I felt that this would be a good way to shake things up, raise the difficulty level on my life a bit, you could say. I will get into this when I talk about public transportation, of which, as a result of ditching the car, I now have many stories. The other of the more subtle reasons, I would say, was that I thought that getting rid of the car would force me to better prioritize my time. Having a car is a luxury, for me, and not a necessity. With it, I could visit my friends in the neighboring towns and cities on a whim, I could make trips to the grocery store, to the mall, to the 100円 store, when I felt like it, and I had many times come away from such trips thinking that they had not been all that necessary. Without a car, acting on impulse suddenly becomes much more difficult, in that sense. And so, the bar, or the activation threshold, for me embarking on any mission, quest, escapade, what have you, was now much higher, and I thought that, and I found that this was true, that it would force me to make better use of my time. And reflecting on it, I find that the same thing is true with my internet usage. I have no internet in my apartment. When I’m lucky, I can connect to my neighbor’s WiFi, but that WiFi is fickle, and will more often than not allow me to connect once a night, only to give me the results of my first search, and then dry up and return no more. When on that tenuous signal, I am aware that at any moment it could vanish forever, and that alone keeps me from attempting most internet activities, but often when I do try them, the internet will teasingly flicker on and off, and I will quickly lose patience with it, slam my laptop shut, and quit whatever I was doing. And this happens, the quitting, because whatever I was doing in the first place, was not all that important. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have tried to do it from my apartment in the first place, where the internet is so unreliable (I say the internet, it’s not even mine. I should say her internet, Nagata sensei’s.) When I really want to use the internet, I will either go visit Nagata sensei, or I will sit outside her apartment on the steps, where I can enjoy free-flowing, uninterrupted internet, and do my business. And I keep my business quick, because I’m most likely sweating, or shivering, with a sore rumpus, from sitting on a step of solid steel and concrete, and craning my neck down to look at the small, dimly lit screen on my lap, and so I am, because of all of these hindrances, efficient with my internet time. Unfortunately, as much as I would wish otherwise, I do have relatively low self-control, and if I had ample internet access I may not even be writing this right now, but would instead be watching English Premier League highlights on YouTube, or searching about how Rogain serves to promote hair growth (for a friend, of course), or something like that; something that I could be doing, but probably don’t need to be. By significantly raising the threshold for the ease of doing something, anything, you have to put in more effort to do it, and the decision to put effort into anything becomes more meaningful the more effort that is required. Thought, as well. Because now with my excursions, like with using the internet, the effort to action threshold has been raised, and I now have to spend a little more thought, and potentially a lot more energy, on whether I want to do something or not, and I think that this has been an incredibly effective way at delineating what in my life is worth my time, and what is not. I have turned down invites that I would have accepted if I had a car, because I didn’t. How interested was I, really, in going then? I have gone through the trouble of taking the time to learn how the busses work, and riding them, to get to the city to play soccer with some friends. That then, was clearly important to me. But not only has it forced me to weigh more considerately what is important to me, and what is not, but it has also forced me to plan out and be more efficient with my time. Before, I would go to the mega-superstore Trial. Trial is up on a hill and is out of the way for me. Because of the fact that it’s up on the hill, and I can’t even bike up that hill, in this entire month I’ve only gone to Trial once. Instead, I stop by Direx, as I pass there on the way back from Ozu High. I’d rather go to Trial, yes, and especially because Trial has my soba, and Direx doesn’t, and I’m actually pissed at Direx, because the last three times I’ve been there they haven’t had my soba, and I’m worried that they don’t even carry it anymore, and I’ve wanted to grab one of the store workers and say, “Hey, don’t you guys know that people like soba! You’re going to lose people’s business! Order more soba!” But even in my soba-rage, I can’t dump Direx, because it now just makes good sense for me to stop there. It is the most economical and efficient thing for me to do. Another point – I wanted to go to Kaldi, at the mall Hikari no mori. This is about a fifteen to twenty minute drive to the west. With a car, I would have gone. I wanted to get my natural peanut butter, which is way better than unnatural peanut butter (isn’t it weird to say that? But if what I get is natural, what else is the other kind but unnatural?) and my muesli (how do you pronounce this word?). Now it is an ordeal, and I had been mulling over when I would make the bike trip out there, when I was struck with the brilliant idea to ask Goto sensei, who I know lives in the Hikari no mori area, and frequents the mall, if she wouldn’t mind picking those things up for me the next time she goes, and I’d pay her back. And so, last weekend, after waiting a week, I got that sweet sweet Line message, “I’m at Kaldi!” And then I had my natural peanut butter and muesli, and I didn’t even have to go to the store. And when I say that paradoxically, I had more freedom as a result of my decision to ditch the car, this is partly why. While could be seen as now an increased reliance on others, I see it as a forced, economical restructuring of how I go about my business, and that restructuring has resulted in me coming away with more time, and less distraction. I can and will rope decision making fatigue into this, because why not – I’m even saving myself from having to make such decisions, about whether I should go to this or that store, to this or that event, to do this or that thing, as anything that I could, or would only do with a car, is immediately ruled out, and I consider it no more. You would think that because I don’t have a car, it takes me longer to get places, and so I would spend more time in transit, and would come out of this all with less time, but I have actually come out ahead, through virtue of the increased effort to action threshold (I keep calling it this and other things, I am not sure exactly what I should say here is, I keep thinking back to the concept of activation energy, in chemistry, which is the amount of energy that has to be supplied in order to make a reaction occur, and in this analogy, my action is the reaction, and the energy required to take the action consists of whatever might factor into the taking of the action, for example cost, time, benefits, etc.), and the fact that when I travel now, it is an experience, and so is never time wasted. That is another major point to be made about this, but I feel like I’ve mostly already made it in my last post, when talking about all of the beautiful things I get to do and see on my walk to Shoyo, that I don’t get from the drive. Whenever I go anywhere now, I go by either train, bus, bike, foot, or another’s car, and in any of those save the bike, I am not required to do anything but confirm every now and again that I’m still headed the right way, and then I can go back to fully engaging my senses in whatever capacity I like. In driving, you are a pilot, and while you can daydream, and sightsee, and enjoy the radio, or have a conversation, you can’t commit yourself to any of these things fully. On a bike, you do have to pilot, but that’s different than riding a car – that’s more sport than work. Riding a bike is exhilarating, especially in Ozu, where there is almost no level ground, where the roads are so narrow that you are almost crushed to the wall by passing cards, where the maze of cracked sidewalks and side-streets and street signs keeps you weaving, dodging, ducking, panting, coasting, endlessly engaged. And another perk about the bike is that you’re almost always in motion, and when you’re not, it’s simply a nice reprieve. Highways? You pass under them. Crosswalks? People stop for you. Traffic lights? Button you push, and turn green they will. (That’s a Yoda quote. It could be at least. I wonder if I thought to write that sentence that way because Yoda is green. The human brain is a mysterious thing..) When you finally do just have to sit it out at a light, you’re about ready for a break anyways. And the bike is the other reason why giving up the car brings more freedom. On the bike, you are truly free. You do still have to find a place to put your bike, that’s true – but bikes are much smaller than cars. I biked right into the heart of the city just yesterday, right into the heart of what they call the machi, the network of narrow streets, tiny stores, a densely crowded spot – I biked right up to the street that had the two stores I wanted to visit, and I leaned my bike up against a wall, and I stepped out onto the street, no worry about finding a place to park my cumbersome car, and at no expense. And on the way there, I passed car after car after car, stuck in waiting, mired in limbo, and I would fly right on by, with the sun in my face, with the wind rustling my shirt, with my heart pumping, and a medium grade sweat on my shins, because I wore thick sweatpants, and it was way hotter than I thought it’d be. As I passed them, I couldn’t help but think with smug satisfaction, “Suckers!!”

One thing about the car – the car keeps things out, but it also keeps you in. It insulates you, and that’s alright, when you need to be – but how often do we need to be? I’d rather be thrown out into the chaos of the world than snugly shielded from it. (Typed while sitting in a comfortable chair, at a comfortable desk, in a comfortable apartment, at a comfortable temperature, in some comfortable sweatpants..) But you get what I mean. I don’t want to be snug all the time; there’s not a lot to be learned in being snug – I want some action. When I made the decision to start biking, I knew I would have to be biking in the rain. This was something that would often come up when someone tried to suggest to me the folly of selling my car. “What about the rain?” They would say. Well, what about the rain? That would be a problem, if we weren’t living in the 21st century, and didn’t have such beautiful products as entirely waterproof synthetic body suits, but we do. This is what you see the students, the bikers, the motorbikers, wearing, in inclement weather, fully shielded from the elements of Earth like astronauts from the elements of space. I took a trip to Handsman, and got myself a similar suit, after trying on several, and deciding which country, of the pack of body-suit-producing, atrocity-committing countries all vying for my yen, I would give it to – and out of China, Myanmar, and Vietnam, I settled on Vietnam, as while they’re communist, I hadn’t yet heard about any recent atrocity committed by the Vietnamese. In this suit then, I am entirely impervious to whatever the wicked winds of Kumamoto want to blow my way, although large balls of hail would still take me out. When we talk about freedom, again, here is another example. As no one, under normal circumstances, naturally wants to be soaked by the rain, we tend to avoid it, and an umbrella helps with that, but you still have to deal with strong winds, if it is windy, and stepping in puddles, and finding a place for your umbrella, and making sure you don’t forget it, and if you do, making difficult decisions about how to get a new one, or waiting for a break in the rain, or biting the bullet and getting drenched in it. When you have a full body waterproof suit, none of this matters. You don your armor, and out you go, and there your worries end. In fact, what would before have been an annoyance, is now a joy, as it is incredibly joyful to walk about in the pouring rain, without a care in the world, to be completely impervious to it, to be able to laugh at it and revel freely in it. That is freedom, and it strikes me in similarity to that feeling I had on top of the mountain, standing there and looking the blizzard in the face, or in the onsen, finding warmth and moisture in the dry cold of winter – it’s a feeling of turning the tables on the elements, taking them head on, embracing them with open arms, defying them; and you can’t help but come away from such encounters with a little more life in you.

I talked about following genius. I had the thought then, coming back to me, that I should stop using my car. I did some pre-experimentation. I knew that the only real thing that could be a pain for me, without the car, was going to my special needs school, which is about a twenty minute drive from my apartment. Before going fully into the no car life, when I was yet still mulling it over, I had a free Sunday, and so I decided to make the trip then, and see how bearable it was, if it was something I could do twice a month, how long it would take, how sweaty I would get. On that trip, something happened, something that I took as a sign, that really affirmed that this was genius that should be followed to its ultimate ends. On the way to this school, I take a road west, for about fifteen minutes, then I turn south, pass through a neighborhood, go a bit down another street, and I reach the school. At that turn, from going west to south, at around that point, there is an enormous hill. This hill is striking in the same way that Mt. Fuji is striking – this hill is a mini-Fuji, because the land all around it is so flat, and clear. I have always wanted to climb this hill, and I look at it longingly whenever I make the trip. That day, as I came back from biking to the school, I thought, why don’t I climb it now? And climbed it was. I met an old man, who showed me the path to the top, I found a secret lake, I walked along ridges and up and down winding trials, leading me who knew where, but I had no place I particularly needed to be, and could lose myself entirely in the exploration. And when I got back, I thought about this. I had passed by that hill so many times in my car, and had always wanted to climb it, and never did; and I pass by it once on my bike, and it gets climbed. What more needs to be said? I think, for me at least, yet another fault of the car is it restricts spontaneity, rather than increases it. Having a car, you have to find a place to park it. You have to put gas in it and think about the gas in it. You have to get into it and step out of it. You have to turn it off and turn it on. You have to open and close the door. And while they sound like little things, I think all such little things, and especially cumulatively, form a barrier to spontaneity. On the bike, rather, you are encouraged to be spontaneous. You’re in motion, you can park almost anywhere, you can hop and off at a moments notice, nothing has to be turned on or off, you are the gas, you are not bound by streets, or even logic. That logic that keeps you bound to the fastest routes, to the most efficient paths planned out by Google Maps, does not apply on a bike, when you can turn down any road you like, on a whim, because it looks promising, where you can slide through back alleys with ease, change course without hesitation, stop at any moment to get your bearings, and readjust your course, or to go ahead and allow yourself to be lost. So, with Thoreau’s words, to follow my genius, and the climbing of the hill, to encourage me to keep following it, I decided that I would take that step, and go from thinking about giving up the car, to doing so.

I have yet to write about any of those moments where I was glad that I hadn’t biked, except with the climbing of the hill. I haven’t given you any specific examples. I haven’t told you about the impact that I’ve had on others, and I think this is always an interesting thing, when you try things like this, when you make these changes, that you will affect not only your own life, but consequently the lives of the people around you, without you intending to do so at all. I find this happening often as a result of being a pescatarian, and it was happening here, is happening here, too. Lewis, who replied, “Indoor human.” when asked if he was an indoor or outdoor human by my friend Kento sensei, told me two days ago that he biked to get groceries; Emily now wants to buy one, and was asking me this week where I bought my bike and how much it cost. But I want to touch once more on the genius bit, because I think you can see clearly that in this instance, for me it was entirely the right decision to follow it; but how did I know it was genius? I think the true skill does not lie so much in carrying out the genius, because once you begin to carry it out, the events and consequences of it will unfold naturally, as a matter of course. The hard part is discerning what is genius, in the first place, and then choosing to act. I can’t say that I have a real answer for knowing what is genius or what is not, what is a good idea, what is a proper intuition, an inspiration, that should be heeded; but somehow, I knew that this was so. That may just be the magic of genius, that it just comes to us, and if we give it the time, and the consideration, and the conviction, to carry it out, seeing not where it would lead us, and crushing it not in its infancy, giving it fuel, allowing it to light, instead of smothering it out of fear, uncertainty, comfort, laziness, or one of the many other such extinguishers, then it can have the power to take us to new heights, to expand and enrich our lives. All it may take is the simple asking of the question – what is your genius saying to you now? And that may be what gets you on, and if you don’t have an answer, then what will get you on the hunt.

I could say more about my dabbles in public transportation, about the fear in the eyes of the girl sitting behind me on the bus, when I turned around in my seat and started speaking to her, to try and ask her if I had missed my stop or not, and how I had in fact missed my stop, as I discovered as I got off of the bus at the end of the route, at the main transport hub in the city, about how I tried to get on a fancy express train and was politely told to get off, as I didn’t have a ticket, and hadn’t reserved a seat.. but I think I’ve more or less made my point, with one final addition. I mentioned that there were many situations in where I found myself glad that I hadn’t used a car, and none where I wish I had, and here’s one of them. I had been regularly playing soccer with some college students at a college in the city, (Kumamoto city, I realize I keep saying “the city”, and you might be thinking, what city, Steven? What city?) and the school year has ended, and they’ve all graduated. We had our last session, of soccer, sushi, then Fifa (they all wanted to play me, I think I played seven games of Fifa then, nonstop, more tiring than the actual soccer) and then a final going out to dinner. And if I had driven a car, we would have said our final goodbye there. But I hadn’t driven a car – that day, like the last time, I had come into the city by bus (unlike last time, successfully), and for this reason, they gave me a ride home that night. I ended up giving them a tour of my apartment, re-gifting almost all of the alcohol that I had stockpiled through various adventures onto them, talking about our futures, and otherwise having a real, proper, final goodbye. Not that it wouldn’t have been if we had ended things there, in that restaurant parking lot, after the dinner – but it would have been different. It just would have been a different ending, the car ending, and I thought about this too, in the passing days, about how that was yet another situation, that turned out for the better, through not having the car. This, then, would be an example of something that I could not see, when deliberating over whether I should or should not pursue this genius, and I think this is prime example of how, when following your genius, things will happen that you could not have predicted.

Well, I think we’re at the end here. This engine is out of steam! I hope that I’ve convinced you to follow your genius – I will keep following mine. You might be wondering, what will be the end of this car saga? I do still have the car. I think it would be at the dealer’s now if I hadn’t been told that I may be going to Aso to teach again, and if that happens, I then will be forced to own, and use it, out of necessity. But the lessons have been learned, and cannot be unlearned, and even if I go back to a life with a car, it will never be the same.

Update: I’m coming back to this after two days. I wanted the instant gratification, but I thought it’d be better for both of us if I gave it some time to sit and see if any more thoughts popped into my mind afterwards, to be added in. About the car, there isn’t much. I think another interesting point about it is that there was some resistance to this idea, some questioning of it, some “Why would make life harder for yourself?” “What if you regret it?” “Please don’t do it!” and I am glad I ran this idea by my friends because they 1. gave me the idea to do a trial run of the no car life, instead of outright selling it, and 2. they showed me that my idea was solid enough, as I was forced considered the merit of their concerns or arguments related to it, on top of my own, and after that, I still ended up following through. So, even if your genius is met with resistance, and perhaps it always will be, don’t let that stop it!

I want to add one more thing to this post, because in this post I’m trying to share a little insight I feel I’ve had recently, about the following your intuition to good ends, and here I have another small insight, or lesson, that I’ve learned, and don’t know where else I’ll put it, and so here it is. Do you know about the dongle? That little white piece of metal and plastic, that can connect two differing types of ports? My dongle was an AUX to whatever that small charging hole in the iPhone 6 or 7 is called. It’s about an inch long. Well, everyone knows that dongle is a piece of garbage. Such a thing really has no right to exist, but exist it does. It is an incredibly inferior product, by design, being so bendable, and thus vulnerable – but I think it is also probably just made with the lowest possible quality ingredients imaginable, so that it will break as soon as possible, and you will be forced to either waste your money on a new one, or finally out of frustration upgrade your headphones to ones that are not AUX, and match the new port. Until they switch the port on you again, and then you have to get yet another pair of headphones. Soon the port may be a thing of the past, with wireless charging and headphones, so that might not be a concern.. but that doesn’t matter to me at the moment, because I have a pair of headphones, I’ve had a pair of headphones for about 6 years now, and they are an incredible pair of headphones, and I don’t want to stop using them, and so I buy dongles, to connect them to my phone, and after buying the third dongle, I will never buy another dongle again. But the lesson is that, I should never have bought the second dongle, let alone the third, because I knew that they would break, and the problem would never really be solved this way. I complained about the weakness of dongles, as I searched for my third, a few weeks ago, about how stupid it all was, but yet I wanted it now, because I wanted to have my music, and I didn’t want to do the work to find any other way to solve this problem. After my second or third run with my new dongle, after making it about a hundred steps from my apartment, my headphones were filled with a hellish, grating, metallic screaming, the sounds a robot might make in its death throes, and I knew that it was done, and the fact that I was an idiot, confirmed. Putting band-aids over a deep wound will not help it close – at some point, you need stitches. Every time I bought a new dongle, I was just buying a band-aid, and not stitches. This was a poor temporary solution to a problem – it was never a permanent fix. And why bother with temporary solutions, if they will only cost you more time and energy in the long run? If you have a problem, and you have to choose between temporary and permanent solution, unless for the time being you have to choose the temporary, to get to the permanent, then never choose the temporary. That is the lesson I learned from this dongle business, and I’m thinking I might just tape it to my wall, next to my notice that I had gotten a package, that was being held for me by a local shipping company, that I procrastinated on, until one day I finally made the call, and was told, “Huh? That was a month ago. We sent that back.” I will always wonder what was in that package. That slip is a reminder to me, not to procrastinate, and especially not on the receiving of packages, and my dongle will be another reminder.

And now, we are officially finished! Will you ditch your car? Will you follow your genius? I don’t think I mentioned it, but the train line, that goes all the way from the west to the east end of Kyushu, is about a ten minute walk from my apartment, and the bus stop that goes into the city is about a two minute walk. That, with the bike, and having friends, made it significantly less daunting to go completely no car. But, even if you couldn’t go all in, any time you could trade your car in for the bike, or the walk, give it a try, and you might find that you benefit as much as I did.

So.. As they say in the Looney Toons, “That’s all folks!”

じゃあーまた！

Major Update: This post was written in the winter of 2020. I have just passed through the winter of 2021/2022 almost entirely unscathed. Kept my stride the whole time. I wrote in this post that I would have to live with SAD my whole life. But I have this time around made an incredible discovery, and that is light therapy. By blasting 10000 lux of light into my eyes every morning this winter I was able to get the light that my body needs so desperately in the winter, artificially, and it made a huge difference. I used a product called Luminettes, and would highly recommend them to anyone struggling with SAD, or who just feels that they could use a boost to their energy levels, or struggles with waking up. They have been truly life-changing for me. If you are SAD, do not hesitate to bring light therapy into your life in some form!

For the one seeking redemption for their cursed soul, there is the church. For the one seeking water to cure their parched lips in the waterless desert, there is oasis. And for the one searching for life in the middle of a bleak and desolate winter, there is onsen.

I’ve been in a strange, tense state.
I blame it on the winter.

I’ve been unable to relax, unable to unwind, spending every minute striving, enduring, or otherwise holding myself hostage to a certain strictness, and for what purpose, simply because I can’t find it in myself to have any “wasted time”, since I’m not doing what I want to do, even though I haven’t the slightest idea what I want to do really is. I only have a vague, ceaseless, unyielding dissatisfaction, and my answer to it seems to be spending every ounce of my dissatisfied energy on anything that I could consider to be concretely productive, that I can feel justified about doing, and I’m starting to wonder if perhaps I’m getting some kind of masochistic satisfaction out of denying myself any pleasure, or perhaps I’m just angry that nothing seems to be bringing me pleasure, or satisfaction, or if it would, it’s for the wrong reasons. At any rate, although I haven’t had much fun this winter, I can say that my Japanese, as a consequence of this self-imposed period of monasticism, has improved tremendously.

Yesterday, I bought a book, titled “Wolves and Wild Dogs”, replete with full-page graphics of lean, menacing, sharp-toothed hunters, pulling down boars and bulls alike, and I think that what may have drawn me to this book was that there was something in those images, of the shocking, wet white fur of the Arctic wolf, artfully bounding an ice floe, of the matted white and grey, brown-tinged Eurasian wolves, with their piercing gazes, posing boldly out in the frigid tundras and snowscapes, something in them stirred up something in me, and maybe I felt that I too, was like these wolves; gaunt, hungry, hunting.

The alternative to this mindset, for me, may be depression, and that I won’t do.

Again, I blame this on the winter. I have no doubt that I am a fortunate benefactor of that aptly named illness, SAD, seasonal affective disorder. It’s something I’ll never escape, only something that I will learn to live with, considering most places bar the equator have seasons, and one of those seasons will be Winter, that cruel, grey mistress.

If it were possible to do so, I would wholeheartedly like to step into the ring with Winter, and take it down, dominate it, physically express my pent-up disgust and dislike of it, as relief for me, and punishment for it. But Winter I cannot dominate. And Winter I cannot escape. And so, I can only defy.

While Winter is crushing in its oppression, there is yet a place where she holds no power, and that place is the onsen. What everything Winter is, the onsen is her antithesis. It is the only place where one can go to escape the iron chains of chill, the smothering blanket of unyielding and endless grey, the savage spell of flesh-cracking aridity. It is sacred ground, the onsen, and from the minute you step into its domain, you are freed like a citizen of East Germany taking their first step across that dividing line. Winter, be damned! you’re free to declare, as you brazenly strip off your armor, and stride forth, naked, utterly exposed, something that is completely unthinkable, could not be tolerated by the cruel Mistress, but again, this is not her domain, and it must spite her to no end, knowing that all her hard work is being in an instant undone; for the moment one steps into that steaming, sacred bathhouse, one is restored, and the icy grip of Winter’s clawed hand, shattered and melted, dissolved and replaced with a vigorous, shrouded aura of vitality, of life.

It was not in the summer that I understood onsen’s power. For in the summer, one has an altogether different, much inferior enemy, the eternal and omnipotent humidity, and a steaming hot bathhouse doesn’t do much in that battle. But against Winter, onsen is an impregnable fortress, one that the enemy, try with all her might, cannot take, one that undoubtedly frustrates and infuriates her, as her foes, her oppressed subjects, return to it again and again, to be protected and restored, re-equipped and reinvigorated, given new life to continue the fight.

If only I had an onsen closer to me, that I could seek its splendid shelter every night! Were I a wolf, then the feeling that takes hold of me when I walk into that onsen must be akin the feeling a wolf has of securing a hard-won kill. For they are both a matter of freedom from oppressors. Freedom from that sharp, aching, gnawing oppressor, hunger, for the wolf, and freedom from that silent, looming desolation, Winter, for me.

There was one other place, one other time, when I have felt in full defiance, stood in absolute insolence of Winter. On top of a mountain, fully equipped for battle, with a slicing whirlwind whipping about me, blasting my eyes and howling my ears, with the monochrome palette of white earth, black rock, and grey void before me, I could then shout, Winter, you are nothing to me. And in that moment, it was absolute truth. I could look her right in the face and lay down a direct challenge, and take a resolute stand; I could fight, on my own terms, a direct fight. I could step into the ring with her, for once, or so I felt. But this was me, trying to dictate the terms of our engagement, and Winter smartly declined them. No, we fight on her terms, and it is not a fight that she will have decided by a single, all-forces-mustered mountaintop brawl; it is a fight to be won through endurance, through enduring a series of grinding skirmishes, attempts at gradually whittling, crushing down the main forces into nothingness, occurring over a period of hours, days, weeks, months. Or, like the garrison of a castle town, too strong or too costly to be overpowered, who has found themselves surrounded and under siege, by a vastly superior force, and who has no choice but to endure, to hold out, to send out the messengers and pray that reinforcements come. But unlike many of the answers to the prayers of the inhabitants in a besieged city, reinforcement from Winter is certain. There is no doubt that it will come; the unfailing Spring. Like a thousand glittering steel-clad knights, astride their gallant white horses, coming up over the hill and into full view of all, radiant in the shining sun, Spring will come to strike fear into the heart of the fiend Winter, and recognizing that her attempted conquest is at its end, she will draw off, and the siege will be broken, and the people, liberated.

The white knights are close. I can feel the warmth of their horses’ exhalations in these new, daring, spells of sunlight and warmth. I know their arrival must be soon, I can count it in the passing of the days. The people are ready for liberation! They hold the image, the soon-to-come sight of hooves trampling over the hill, high in their consciousness, lighting a fire in their souls, raising their clenched fists to the sky, crying out, Come, O’ Glorious Knights, Come!

(I am now reading Moby Dick. Clearly Herman is rubbing off on me. It’s a good book. At this moment I would rather be cooped up in the quarters of a whaling ship in the middle of the ocean than in an apartment in Ozu Town. Although as I type that now, I imagine that it’s at least warm and sunny out on the sea – but when Ishmael and his crew embark on their whaling adventure, it’s the middle of winter. Which is quite fitting, isn’t it.)

(This is entirely unrelated, but if you are as blind as I am, do not buy clear glasses. Can’t find them when you set them down.)

(Happy New Year to everyone, we will have a great 2021!)

From The Future, A Preview: This story is about my buying a bowl from a local noodle shop. I use this bowl every day that I am home. I eat everything out of this bowl. It is a big bowl in my life. This is the story of how I came to acquire this magnificent bowl.

Alright. We’re back.

Yes, it’s finally here. What you’ve all been waiting for. Maybe you thought it would never come. But it’s here. The bowl story.

Let’s go.

Right off the bat, I have to tell you. For this post, I’m trying something new, which is why it feels weird to be calling this a post. I’m writing this post out entirely by hand, instead of typing it out first, as I usually do. I’m doing this because of something that our good man Barack Obama said, when he was talking about how he writes everything out on legal pads (his medium of choice – for me, it’s scrap paper that I’ve accumulated at the school and taken home, failed or overprinted copies of worksheets and whatnot). He writes first, he says, because it helps him to avoid “half-baked thoughts.” That stuck with me, and as I don’t want to be writing half-baked thoughts, and posting half-baked posts, I thought I’d try doing it Obama style, this time. Although, if blog posts are anything like cookies, half-baked may just be best.

Without further ado, then, let’s get into the bowl story.

This story is really about a bowl. I eat out of this bowl every day, usually several times a day. I have four bowls. One I made, two I inherited, and one I bought, and it’s the bought bowl that this story is about.

The story takes places many months ago. It was the day that James, the Ubuyama JET, was leaving Kumamoto. He has since been succeeded by another James, from Australia, who I had met for the first time on Christmas Eve, at our small Christmas party. He’s from the Gold Coast, is allergic to nuts, and raw strawberries, and tomatoes, had never seen snow before coming to Kumamoto, has a different pronunciation for merry, Mary, and marry. He comes from an area of about 800,000, to a town of, what, several thousand at most. His new house is surrounded by trees, with only two neighboring houses, where the school administrators stay when they don’t want to go back to their real homes. His closest grocery store is about 20 minutes away. His car has immediately failed him. The engine light came on, and when he got it checked out by a mechanic, the mechanic plugged his computer into the car and said, “Well I’ve never seen this before!” Which is always what you want to hear your mechanic say. He will probably have to buy a new car. So Australian James is having a nice welcome to Kumamoto experience. We did try to give him a proper welcoming, and show him a good time, American Christmas style, and he tried snickerdoodles and cinnamon rolls for the first time. I asked my friend Ryoka chan if she had had cinnamon rolls before and she said, “Yes, of course. Why?” And I told her that my new friend James hadn’t, and she was shocked. Her words: “What? How does this happen?” Which is a great question that I will ask James about the next time I see him – how and why are Australians not eating cinnamon rolls.

At the party, we played a round of rock-paper-scissors. That is, we played the American version. Now, you may be surprised to hear this, but there are other versions of rock-paper-scissors. Other variants. The Japanese have two. They have the Japanese version, which is jyan-ken-pon, and then they have their English version, which is rock-scissors-paper. For me, who’s spent my whole life playing it rock-paper-scissors, who has known nothing else, this just feels wrong. Australian James (I think we’ve found our nickname here. Australian James has a nice ring to it. Like Indiana Jones. Who is known in Japan as Indy Jones. I discovered this when I was telling my classes that I was from Indiana, which unsurprisingly almost no one knows about, because it’s not Texas, New York, Florida, Hawaii, or one of those big cities in California, and when I would say, do you guys know Indiana Jones, they would stare at me blankly, and then I would sing the theme song, and then they would say, “Indy Jones!!”) Australian James taught us yet another way, the Australian way, which is paper-scissors-rock. Somehow this one is more palatable to me. I think I don’t like ending on paper. I’m writing about this because when we told James about the other American version, rock-paper-scissors-shoot! He said, “Yep, that’s just like Americans.”

Annie, Emily, and I were taking American James out to lunch, before his flight to Tokyo. He had taken a new job in Saitama, teaching kindergarteners. This was last April, I believe. Annie gave James a ride to the Kumamoto airport, which is a ten or fifteen minute drive from my place in Ozu, and so we had lunch in Ozu, at a place that Emily’s predecessor (the ALT before Emily, in the JET world we call them predecessors; some people call them ‘preds’, but the first time I heard that I immediately thought, ‘predator’, so it hasn’t really caught on with me) had taken her to before he left. This place is よも麵 (yomomen), a small, unassuming local noodle shop posted up next to the Ozu public library.

Our squad shows up at about 2 pm on a Sunday. We walk in, are greeted, and directed towards to ticket vending machine on our left. This machine is frequently found in noodle shops. They will take your order and your money, and issue a ticket in return, that details your order, that you then give to the staff. I really enjoy these ticket machines. So we turned to this particular ticket machine (I’m now wondering what this thing is actually called in Japanese – I know vending machine is 自動販売機, jidouhanbaiki, or 自販機, jihanki, for short) and started to peruse the menu. At this time, I took it upon myself to read what was written on each of the buttons, and explain the meaning, to my friends, who are all at least as Japanese savvy as I am, James much more so, and so they could quickly point out all my errors. “See here, these are the hot noodles. This means hot. And these are the cold noodles. That means cold. And these are the happiness noodles. This means happine-” “Those are spicy noodles.” And here, in my defense, was a mistake that anyone could have made. The kanji for happiness and spicy are dangerously similar, as is the case with many kanji. Here’s happiness – 幸い、and here’s spicy – 辛い. Tricky, right. And here’s two more tricky ones – 士 (samurai)土 (ground). And then there’s 末 (end) and 未 (not yet). I guess this is what happens when you have tens of thousands of these things. There’s just gonna have to be some trickery.

I do like the idea of happiness noodles and I think someone should be selling them.

So anyways, after reading almost every label on the machine, mainly to myself, as the friends stopped listening awhile ago, it was my turn to order. I had decided that for me, I didn’t need to know what I was ordering – I just needed to know the price. I was incredibly hungry, and so I just wanted max food, and at a noodle place, this means whatever is the most expensive. So I found the most expensive option, all the way down at the bottom right, put in my money, pushed the button, and got my ticket. I handed it to the nice looking store owner, a younger-middle-aged woman, and sat down at the end of the row. And so this was the beginning of what would become an unusually eventful restaurant experience.

It turned out that out of all of the tickets, I should have read mine, because right after sitting down, the woman came up to me and said, hesitatingly, and in good English, “Um.. Excuse me, but, this is takeout. Do you want takeout?” My friends are amused. I look at the ticket, and it says, お持ち帰り, omochikaeri (literally meaning, “take home”. It’s definitely takeout. I tell her that I want to eat in the restaurant, and that I chose this because I was really hungry, and it was the most expensive thing on the menu. She understands, and asks me if I want hot or cold noodles. I think about it for a moment, and tell her, cold. She gives me some money back. She turns and starts to walk away, when I suddenly remember to slip in a, “肉なし、できますか？” Nikunashi, dekimasuka? Can you make it without meat? And she turns to me, in confusion. After a moment, she replies. “But, this is a basashi restaurant..”

I’ve mentioned this before, about how every prefecture, even every town, has a specialty, or multiple specialties. Oita has the toriten that I told you about (the rare chicken), and it has yuzu, a green citrus fruit, and Kumamoto has ikinari dango, and basashi. Among other things. Basashi is horse meat. They eat it raw and they eat it cooked. I’ve had it both ways and cooked is definitely better. Being a specialty, you don’t eat basashi often, and you can’t just get it anywhere. Most people usually only eat it for New Years. It’s a delicacy, you could say. So you can imagine what this woman is thinking, when this guy walks in here, to her specialty basashi restaurant, and tells her, leave out the basashi, and this after ordering the most expensive thing on the menu without reading it, because he’s hungry. Whatever she was thinking in that moment, she had no problem accommodating me, and after confirming that I was fully aware of what I was asking of her, she set off to make it. So, our relationship was already off to a fun start, her and I’s.

Now my friends and I are sitting, talking, waiting for the food, and after a few minutes, Annie’s bowl comes. I could say that Annie’s noodles came, but in that moment, the noodles were the farthest thing from my mind. What was on my mind, then, was not the noodles, but the bowl, because the second that I had laid eyes on that bowl, I was struck with a thought, and the thought was this – That is a really nice bowl. On reflection, I realized that I have never been struck by a bowl in this way. I wonder if I ever will again. But this bowl, as soon as I saw it, I was aware of it, it’s quality, it’s shape. To me, it looked just like the shell of a conch snail, like the queen conch I had spent some time working with on my study abroad in Belize. It was large and layered and spiraling. It was a nice bowl. And I comment on this to my friends. “That’s a nice bowl!” I say. They look at it, and give some slight nods of agreement, a pretty muted response. As Annie goes in for the first slurp, and I’m still watching it. I say to them, “It looks just like a snail’s shell!” Annie looks at it one more time. “Yeah..!” She says, noncommittally. It’s clear that I’m the only one so moved by this bowl, but it does not frustrate me. I think more about the bowl. How I’ve never felt this way about a bowl. It is a fine piece of craftsmanship. Where did it come from? Custom made? Did they make it themselves? My bowl comes. I then note the size – it’s a sizeable bowl, larger than any of mine. A great size. As I’m eating, I make yet another comment to my friends. “This is such a nice bowl!” And then I added, half-jokingly, “I wonder if they’ll sell it to me!” And Annie replies, “You should try!” And at first, it wasn’t a serious thought, not entirely. But after her response, I realized – I should try. This bowl could be mine, and all I have to do is ask. The shopkeeper must already think I’m somewhat ridiculous. I would only be living up to the first impression I’d created for myself, by straight-up asking her if I could buy this bowl. I have nothing to lose, and a bowl to gain. And so, the next time she walked by, I caught her attention. “Excuse me..” “Yes?” “This is a really nice bowl. I was wondering, uh.. can I buy it?” My friends are now laughing, but I’m not – I’m completely serious. The shopkeeper is unsure what to say. She thinks about it for a moment. “Well, I’ve never sold a bowl before.. and they’re all used. Is that ok?” I reply, “No problem.” She thinks for another second. “Ok,” she says. “Just a moment.” She goes into the back of the store.

I am surprised. It’s farther than I thought I’d get. I turn to my friends. She’s going to sell me the bowl! And now the question is forming in my mind. What will I pay for this bowl? What is my maximum? What can she get me for? I try to come up with a good number, if she asks me for a price. I want the bowl. Clearly, I am moved by it. I am impressed with the quality, the design. I am also not a man who knows anything about pottery or bowl-making, and so I have no idea what the real worth of this bowl is. 1000円？4000円? I can’t tell, but I settle on 2000 being my maximum (that’s about $20), although I probably would go for 2500, if it came to it. If she asks me to give a price, I don’t want to offend her, either. If I go too low, maybe she’ll think I’m not even worthy of having the bowl after all. I’m not trying to rip her off – I want to give her a good price for the bowl. I’m thinking about these things when she comes out from the back and walks over to me. “Ok,” She says. “I have a bowl. It’s used. You’re ok with that?” I say again yes, and then I ask the question. “How much?” Hoping she doesn’t have me name a price. Wondering if I’d really hold to my maximum. She thinks for a moment, then says, tentatively, “Mmm, 500円?” And I couldn’t believe it. “Really?” I said. For that price, I’d buy five, ten of these babies. I almost told her then that I’d pay more for it, and part of me felt like I really should give her more for such a magnificent bowl.. but I said nothing more than an emphatic, “Yes!”

For having never sold a bowl before, she knew how to wrap it. I walked out of there with my new bowl, bubble-wrapped and encased in cardboard, feeling like a brand new man. As we left, I said my many arigatougozaimasu, and promised that I’d be back. Bowl aside, the noodles were incredible. And I’ve since been back, and I made sure to thank her again for the bowl, and to tell her that I use it every day. I think like me she must have a fond memory of that day, because it can’t be often that one of her customers orders takeout without wanting takeout, requests basashi-less noodles, and asks to buy a bowl, all in the same visit. I told Mr. Parker Junior about the bowl, and the story, and when he finally got to see it, I said “What do you think?” And I don’t think he was too impressed with it. But whether it impresses anyone else or not, that doesn’t matter. It will always be a special bowl for me, not just because it is functionally and aesthetically flawless, but because it also has something else, something better: a story.

So, that’s the end of the bowl story. It came out to be about eight pages of fully baked thoughts. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is a significant moment, an achievement, a milestone in this blog’s history. The day the bowl story was finally told!

I’ve already written so much. I wanted to talk a bit about the clothes. I don’t want to write much now. My hand is cramping. For now, I’ll just say this. I am investigating. This is a complex issue. I’ve since bought a sweater and a pair of pants. Expensive, somewhat. Made in Japan. The pants were 100% cotton. Where does the cotton come from? The sweater was 66% synthetic fiber. On synthetic fibers – 35% of the microplastics in the ocean come from synthetic textiles (according to a report from the International Union for Conservation of Nature). We absorb toxins from these textiles through our skin. Not good stuff. There is a lot to consider. I also bought some secondhand clothes. Did you know that only 10% of the clothing in secondhand stores is sold (as of 2015)? I’m starting to acquire a lot of little facts like this.

Anyways, that’s it for this post. It’s the holidays! Ho ho ho! I should be writing about Japanese Christmas. I can sum this up in a single paragraph. They like Kentucky Christmas (ordering KFC takeout on Christmas). Last Christmas and All I Want For Christmas Is You are the two most popular Christmas songs here. Japanese snowmen have two balls in their body. None of my students know the name of the reindeer with the shiny red nose. They also don’t know that Santa lives in the North Pole, or that he’s married. Most of them don’t know that bad children get coal for Christmas. Some of them know that people give Santa milk and cookies. Some of them know that the toys are made by elves. (When I pose this question to my students, “Who makes the toys for Santa?” I often get the answer, “Small human.”) Only kids get presents, in Japan, and the parents usually put the presents on their pillows, even when they have a Christmas tree. Some people put up lights and decorations on their houses, but not most. They do not know about gingerbread houses or gingerbread cookies. They do know about stockings, and snowball fights. I have told my students that they should get presents for their parents for Christmas, and I don’t think anyone is going to take me up on that suggestion. Home Alone is popular. I guess that’s a Christmas movie? I didn’t know that. I’m not a movie guy. I have surprised more than a few Japanese people by telling them that I haven’t seen Back To The Future.

Ok, this is the end for real. I hope you had a Merry Christmas and are gearing up for a fantastic New Year. Happy Holidays, and unless the hot fire of inspiration strikes me before then, see you in 2021!

Howdy ho buckaroos.

I think about you guys. That’s really why I’m writing this post right now. As opposed to say, in a week, or a month from now, when I might finally get around to writing because I feel worked up about something and want to spin another story. But this time, I’m writing because I feel a bit guilty, I suppose, and because with time passing, there will be no difference in the outcome of the post regarding “The Fall,” and so I need to just get on with it. I also think I should stop making you guys so many promises about future stories, but maybe just for my sake it’s a good way to keep me accountable, and not let too much time pass between posts.

So, I promised you a part 2, and here we go! (Don’t ask me about the bowl story, one thing at a time now.)

The Fall. I tried to write about this twice, actually, and each time I sat down and wrote a few hundred words or so, attempting to craft an epic, full of irony and intrigue and life lessons and cultural education and yada yada, and both times it just wasn’t working. And I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s just not going to work, that way, and all that really needs to be said is this: I threw out my back while playing in the sensei handball tournament. And there you go. Throwing out your back sucks. I couldn’t move for two days without going, “Ohhh!!” or “Ah!!!” And the people around me would turn to me in surprise and concern. Almost every sensei I knew was in the building that day, because out of the four schools that I teach at, three were there, and so they all bore witness to my thrown back. The senseis who weren’t there, of course, still found out about it, because someone felt the need to announce it at the all-hands meeting (at least at Shoyo), or they had a spouse who was playing (at Kuroishibaru) and so all day I had teachers who weren’t even at the handball coming up to me and saying, “Your back.. ok?” And finally I asked Nakamura sensei, who is a charming home economics teacher, how did she know about it, and she told me it was announced at their morning meeting, I guess as a heads up, so that no one expected any piggyback rides to class, or wanted to have a quick passing period wrestling match. I was treated very well by all teachers, and I do feel extremely lucky to have such a supportive group of people around me. Everyone was bringing me treats, asking me how I was, telling me their personal remedies for thrown back (in Japanese, ぎっくり腰 (gikkurigoshi, another word I will never forget, like shorui, the special papers), and sympathizing with me. Last year, the handball tournament was a moment of peaking for me, scoring many goals, and having a good time bonding with the teachers, and demonstrating my worth, physically, winning the ganbaru trophy in the end (remember this word?). This year, I spent almost all of it on the floor, shivering, surrounded by small children, who became my good friends, by the end of the day, and I thought, that’s really just fitting given how totally wacky this year has been, compared to my last year. It’s hard to imagine that I’m still in the same place, at the same job, as I was just a year ago, because it feels so different, but I know everyone is going through this, the corona days, and we just deal with it how we do. And going on about the shivering on the floor, the floor was ice cold, I may as well have been laying on a sheet of ice, and I was the only person who was stupid enough to wear shorts that day, which I noticed when we took to the floor to warmup, and I have to admit I felt a little superior, like a, well I’m just strong! type feeling, although it was really just because I only have a single pair of sweatpants and I had run in them several times already, and they were not clean in any way, and so I just thought I’d bear it out in shorts, but that turned out to be the wrong move, as I spent the rest of this day on an ice cold floor. And with each shiver, I would groan with pain. And for the next several days, the moment before every sneeze was a moment of terror, and the sneeze itself, pain. But, what I wanted to get back to again was this, that the senseis are incredibly considerate, and they took pity on the poor American that they had inherited, and saw how he shivered, in his pair of shorts, and found all the spare warm things that they had, and by the end of the day he was clothed in Fukukoucho sensei’s jacket, Kawaguchi sensei’s pants, and Nishida sensei’s jacket and blanket.

I had made friends with several small children that day, who were one of the sensei’s kids, and who continually brought me treats. The first time they brought me treats, they approached me very cautiously, like one might approach a starving, wounded bear, and placed the treats at a distance where I could reach them if I just stretched out for them, coming no closer. I asked the youngest girl, who had just turned five, what her name was, and her mom told her to say her name, and she says, “Yuna.” And then I said, “Thank you Miss Yuna.” And her mom whispered to her, “Say you’re welcome!” And the girl just shook her head. But the third time that they came to me, she looked at me, summoning a bit more courage, and smiled playfully, and said to me, “Do you want to play tag?” And this just blew my mind. I could only laugh. It was so innocent. I was laying on my stomach, because it was only slightly more comfortable than being on my back, and I was craning to look up at her, and I felt like some sort of enormous turtle, washed up on land, hardly able to move, and as I am craning up laying belly down on this freezing floor, she asked me if I wanted to play tag. What she really asked me was, “Onigokoshitai?” Which is, “Do you want to play Oni Gokko?” Which is the Japanese version of tag, where someone is the oni (demon) and the other kids run from the oni. And after a second of just wondering how to respond to her, I said, “Yes, but I am not a very strong oni.”

After the tournament Nishida sensei did take me to a massage. It was the first massage I’ve ever had. Professionally. It was 1500円 for 30 minutes, which is crazy, right? So cheap. I’ve been meaning to go back, but I can’t seem to justify it.

That’s about everything I wanted to say with the destruction of the back, “The Fall.” I have to say that I do feel like it was a positive thing in that it brought a lot of other people enjoyment. And I can now sympathize with everyone who’s ever had a thrown back. I told all of my classes that I had gikkurigoshi, and that I don’t recommend it, and I asked them all if they’ve ever had it, and they were like.. no. Which I’ve also done recently with my frostbite, because yes, I’ve gotten frostbite.

Winter is here in Kumamoto. The season has been here for a while now, since early, mid-November you could say that the season had really begun to shift. It’s very interesting how our bodies respond to the shift. For me, personally, I’ve noticed that I hardly play piano anymore, I read much more, and I eat less. The eating thing is also partially because I made a conscious decision to lose some of this chub I’ve acquired, and because I’ve found that fasting gives me a little bit of a cognitive boost, and I’m exploring what that’s all about. Winter in Kumamoto is interesting. Kumamoto is at about the same latitude as Los Angeles or San Francisco (just glancing at my trusty Google Maps). It has a warm and temperate climate. Actually a website has told me that it is most similar to North Carolina. Right now, there are still many flowers in bloom, although it has gotten significantly colder in the past week or so. The sun sets earlier and earlier, and is now setting at around 5 o’clock, which is damn early. I don’t like this season, but there is one thing about it that almost makes it all worth it, and that is the sunsets. The dusk sky here is absolutely incredible. Almost every night I’m thinking to myself, my god this is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. It really is that beautiful. The palette of colors is just unbelievable, every shade of pink and red and orange and yellow and purple and blue and light blue that you could imagine. My pictures never do it justice. It does make me think that we are really missing out on something by not being able to see the full, raw majesty of the night sky, every night. I have seen the night sky in its full beauty once, and I still think about it. I wonder how that would change us as people, if we could look on that every night, once again. I am really serious about that. When I look at that setting sun, and the way it paints the entire sky in this incredible array of colors, I feel comforted, and small, in a good way, like there are things in this universe that are just bigger and more beautiful than me.

Then, later in the night, I check my phone, thinking it must be about nine o’clock, and it’s only six thirty, and I think, wow, this is just terrible.

Another thing I wanted to get at about differences in winter in Kumamoto and Indiana, is the way that the people deal with it. Winter in Kumamoto is not that bad. It only snowed a few times last year, and it never stuck. There are no icy roads, there’s no snow days, or closures due to dangerously low temperatures. Now, combine that with the Japanese spirit of gaman (endurance), or ganbaru (perseverance, fighting, I mentioned before) and you will not be surprised by what I am about to say, which is that when it comes to the winter there is a great deal of just, endurance. The insulation in my apartment is horrible. The schools are not heated, usually. The girls are still wearing skirts. They actually are required to wear skirts until December. Meanwhile, I’m wearing my Uniqlo heat-tech thermal underwear, and my sweater, and sometimes my coat. Everywhere is colder than it usually is, because the windows are all wide open, to bring in the fresh air, a preventative measure against corona. I sit right by a window, at Shoyo, and all day yesterday, as I sat at my desk, I was having a nice, comforting, frigid winter breeze blow over me. And also, from yesterday, I can give you a great example of this spirit of endurance, which is, from this example, perhaps indoctrinated into the students while they’re in school. Yesterday was the Shoyo high school’s culture festival, and for that, we gathered all the students, and sat them down on the gym floor, in front of a screen, to watch recorded performances, for almost two hours. All of the doors and windows are open. The gym floor is ice cold. It is a cold day. And all of the students are sitting there, on that ice cold floor, in their thin ankle socks, and the girls in their skirts. And here I am in all my cold-gear, and I’m still cold. And everyone is saying, samui! samui! (It’s cold!) We’re all in agreement about this fact. And I’m watching them, sitting there, shivering, reminding me of my recent experience with a cold gym floor, and I’m thinking.. why are we doing this? What is the point of this? There is a better way.

So I tell you this, so that you can see that while winter in Kumamoto is not as cold, and does not have the same problems, it is still winter, with it’s early darkness, and bearing the cold, and waiting it out. And, with the way things are here, you may find it easier to understand how I’ve been able to get frostbite, here, and have never had it once in Indiana, where the winters are much harsher.

The frostbite story is basically this – at the beginning of this week, my left foot started getting itchy. On Tuesday, it was bad enough that I noticed it, and thought about it, several times in the day, and would wiggle my toes around, but not to the point where I had to scratch it, or thought much about it, as in that there could be something actually wrong. On Wednesday, however, it reached the point where my entire concentration would be disrupted, by the severe itchiness, and at one point I thought, actually, what the hell is going on down there, and so sitting at my desk, I took off my shoe, and sock, and took a good look at my foot. I noticed that my toes were red, shiny, and just the slightest bit inflamed. With the amazing power of the internet, I had a potential answer in less than two minutes – I just searched, “itchy toes in winter” and I found what appeared to be my problem. At least, the toes in the pictures I was looking at were perfectly identical to the toes that were attached to my feet, and so I thought, this seems to be it. However, genius google said that my problem was chilblains, which I’m not sure if is exactly frostbite, or a symptom of it, but either way, it sounded like something that happened to people hundreds of years ago, living in wooden homes, or adventurers out in the arctic, or mountain climbers, and not to an English teacher in Kumamoto, who has lived in a much colder place, and has never had it before. So, one of the perks of working at a school, I walked right downstairs, and asked the nurse about it. She took a look at it, and she said, do you know about shimoyake? And I said, no. And she went over to the computer and typed it in, and she said, “Furosutobaito.” (Frostbite.) And that was it. She gave me some magic cream, which really helped, and she told me to go buy a pair of slippers, because my apartment was too cold, and my feet were too cold. And I was quite surprised, because I didn’t think it was that cold in my apartment, to the point where I’d be getting frostbite, because you know, I still associate that with snow, and ice, and mountains, and such things, but that night when I got back to the apartment, I realized just how damn cold my floor really was, and that my poor feet really must have been frozen, and have been freezing. And I promptly bought a pair of slippers, and when I take them off I’m struck again by how cold the floor is.

I again told all of my classes about this. It went the same way as my gikkurigoshi story. Recently I’ve gotten shimoyake. Or, in English, frostbite. Have you ever gotten frostbite? And they all just look at me like, no, Steven sensei, and what are you doing in your life, that you’re having all these problems?

To me, chilblains just sounds like a word out of a totally different era. I’ve never heard that word before. I’ve never heard of anyone having it. It comes from a time when people put coal in their furnace, or had milk delivered to their door in bottles, or rode a carriage to town. I do feel kind of special for having had it, now.

I know I’m writing a lot here, and I’m not sure if this is all that interesting to you. This will be the last thing I write, for this post, and maybe it will be interesting, but please don’t judge me too much, for this, because I’m going to tell you this in confidence.

On Friday, I was at Shoyo, and I was talking to my friend, Hiroyuki sensei, who is a geography teacher, a young buck, who will be going to teach in Tokyo after this year. He is slender, likes English, has large glasses, and is always teaching me interesting things, and we both like history, so we have good conversations. He is very cat-like, to me, and it’s hard for me to offer a lot of concrete examples of what I mean, here, but you know what cats are like, so just imagine that Hiroyuki sensei is kind of like that. He approaches my desk in the way that a cat might approach you when you’re out and about, one that wants pets, but is alright if it doesn’t get them, or one that is just curious in you, and is coming up to get a better look, and may want to be petted, if it likes what it sees, or if you’re interested, in giving it a pet. Not that Hiroyuki sensei is wanting to be petted, but, you know what I mean. He is cat-like, alright? Anyways, I was talking to him about some Japanese authors, and why Japanese commit seppuku (an honor suicide through stabbing oneself through the stomach with a short sword and then being decapitated), and then Japanese suicides in general, and he was telling me about Kawabata Yasunari, a Noble Prize winning Japanese author, who tried to commit suicide three times, succeeding on the third time, and how in one of his interviews, he made the interviewer cry just by staring at her. Which is when I learned the word, 目力 (mejikara), literally meaning “eye power.” The next day I asked Goto sensei about this story, and she told me that, apparently he stared at her for about thirty minutes, without talking, and then she finally broke down crying. So, it goes without saying, I’d like to read some of his work.

But, in a lull in our conversation, and Hiroyuki sensei is wondering if he should get on with his business, or let me get on with mine, it strikes me to tell him something. I say to him, Hiroyuki sensei, I have a secret. And he goes, oh. I know I can trust him with this secret, and so I tell him, that I’ve been wearing the exact same clothes every day this week (it was Friday). He laughs, and offers some surprise, but mostly interest. I tell him a lot of strange things, so I think he isn’t all that surprised by what comes out of my mouth anymore. I told him about how I don’t really have a lot of clothes, especially warm clothes, and that now that it’s winter, my clothes don’t dry in a day, so I can’t just wash them at night and wear them the next day, and how my suit has gotten a little too small, and how I can pull this off because there are no days where I go to the same school two days in a row, and so I have now found myself wearing the same pair of clothes every day. And he offered that, because it’s winter, we’re also not really sweating, so you don’t smell bad, and I agreed. And then he asked me, what are you going to wear tomorrow? Which is exactly what I had been thinking about earlier that day, because that did present a little bit of a problem, as I would be coming to Shoyo two days in a row, and then it’d be a little risky to wear the exact same pair of clothes to the same school, and so I did have to make a change, somehow. And I ended up wearing jeans, which was the first time I’ve worn jeans to the school, but it was a special day, and they were nice jeans, and so it went well. But that got me thinking, as well as a recent conversation with my mom, who was horrified by this story, that I should probably buy a few more clothes. And that is my goal for today. But, as a final bit, I’d like to explain why it is that I don’t have many clothes, because you might think, like my mom, that I don’t care about my appearance, but that’s not true, because I do. I’m actually very conflicted about clothes, and the wearing of clothes, and so this has become somewhat of a confusing issue for me, and has lead to some paralysis, I would say, on the issue. I seem to be able to come up with points arguing for and against the necessity of clothes, and I go down a path that ends up leaving me with no answers. For example – frugality is a virtue. It is good not to be wasteful. And it is good not to have more than you need. Right? To only buy what you need, or what will really benefit you. I think about that, and I try to live that out, although I think I could be doing a much better job of it. So, I have to ask myself the question, do I need new clothes? And that’s actually a tricky question to answer. You can see that I can wear the same clothes every day, and get away with it, although I might totally be an idiot here, and everyone has noticed that I am in fact wearing the same clothes each day. But then, is there anything wrong with that? Inherently? No, right? I don’t smell. They’re clean. I look presentable. They’re nice clothes. So, why should I change them every day? Now, here we get into the realm of, it’s for the people, to keep up a good impression. I don’t want anyone to think I’m sloppy, or that I don’t care about my appearance, or whatever judgement they may draw from this. So, clothing is certainly important, in striking a good impression others. But, at the same time, how good is it to judge another based on their clothes? How good is it to judge others based on their physical appearances at all, for that matter? I think it is true that you can make inferences about someone based on their physical characteristics, but those inferences may turn out to be totally false, and so in that case, is this a good habit? Now, reasonably, most people probably do not go so far to assess whether their impressions of another based on their physical characteristics are accurate ones or not, and that would really be impossible to do with everyone anyway. You meet so many people, and some meetings are so brief, and it is important to be able to make judgements, to navigate through the incredible amount of information that we’re trying to process at any given moment, and you have to have something to go off of, and many of your judgements are subconscious anyway, and can’t even be really scrutinized, not readily. So then, it is good to dress in a way that you you maximize that chance that someone will have a good impression of you, because, it’s just smart. But, at the same time, if we only judge based on what we see on the surface, we may judge incorrectly. I suppose that I don’t want to fall into any habit of thinking that someone is in any way superior to another just by the way of their appearance. So this is one thing that I think about, when I think about clothing, along with whether or not I even really need the clothing.

I would also touch on that everyone, or almost everyone, must feel good when they wear new clothes, that make them feel sexy, and confident. And of course, those are good things. And humans have been dressing themselves for a long time, and appearances are important in signaling your status, and health, your good genes, really. But, is confidence inspired through clothing, true confidence? Is it well-placed confidence? What has really changed about you, except that you now are going to be perceived as being more attractive, or say, more successful, or however you will be perceived, or however you think you will be, because I suppose what matters more is how you think you’ll be perceived, rather than how you are, in terms of self-confidence. You see what I mean, right? Is confidence based in clothing any kind of true confidence? What would happen to you if your head was shaved and you were dressed in rags? Would you be able to carry yourself with the same dignity? But inside, you are the same person, are you not? So I don’t how I should feel about buying new clothes just to look good. Now, that is the more detached way of looking at it, or, non-emotional, and it doesn’t do anything to change the fact that I feel fresh when I get a good haircut, when I swap out my shoes for ones that I think are cooler. And, I wouldn’t go as far as to say that anyone should feel guilty, or shouldn’t feel confident in their new clothes either. And I do think that dressing is a form of expression, and that is a way to show some personal style, artistry. I guess, looking at it from that standpoint, of self-expression, then it becomes something more.

So, I think about these things, and don’t come to any definite conclusions, and this is before I’ve even set out to buy new clothes. Now let’s say that I’ve decided to get some new clothes, because I want to change the way other people think about me, strike them in a different way, perhaps change the way I feel about myself, shake up my image. I know you can say that it’s just fun to buy clothes, too, but that can be a double edged sword, right. Now actually, before we buy the clothes, there is something else to consider about needing new clothes and about deciding if you really need new clothes. When you get clothes, they have to come from somewhere. The material has to be grown, or made. That takes a field, or a factory. Someone has to put your clothes together. Who is that someone? What kind of wages are they getting? What kind of rights do they have, as a worker? What are their working conditions? Are the clothes you’re buying perpetuating a cycle of suffering, or are they elevating someone out of poverty, giving them economic opportunity? This is thinking about the person – then, think about the planet. How much of an environmental cost went into making this product? What kind of land was cleared for the field for the material? Or for the factory? What volume of greenhouse gases were emitted in the act of bringing this product, and all the different pieces of it, all of the steps that were required to assemble it, to you? Is it worth it, then, for you to buy it? Are you doing net good, or net bad, with this purchase?

Should you buy secondhand? You can circumvent all of these considerations when you buy secondhand. But, what if I don’t want the secondhand? Or, it takes too much time? It’s hit or miss, right? Or what I want is something I just can’t find at a secondhand store? Well, you can still buy something new, but it has to be done with care, doesn’t it?

So, it’s much easier to avoid doing any harm, or headache, for me, by not buying. If we had organizations, government bodies, responsible companies, that we could trust were being fair to the worker, were supporting environmentally responsible practices, materials, etc., then it’d be much easier to buy new things. (I know they’re out there, those companies, and I mean to do some research, but for these companies you probably have to buy online to get their products, and then you can’t try the clothes on, or if they don’t fit you have to send them back, a whole other can of worms.) If the transport chain wasn’t helping to destroy the earth. If my buying these things is also my buying into a culture that tells me that I need more to keep up cultural or societal norms, a culture that is complicated and that I am still not sure about, but am learning more towards, it’s not a good one. In one of my school’s English textbooks, I was reading about the lives of Japanese people living during the Edo period. I believe it was the Edo period. 1603-1868. Edo is the old name for Tokyo, also, fun fact. It was a period of time where people made use of every little thing that they had. People repaired broken things. People reused, recycled, their food waste, their old tatami mats, even their poop. Actually, their poop was regarded as highly valuable, because it was some of the best fertilizer. I think about that, and then I think about how, when I was a substitute teacher, I would watch a third of the kids in a class throw away their breakfast without touching it. A sugary, crap breakfast, made with plastic. I think about how, when I used to work at Menards, I watched them throw away bags of dog food, door locks, mattresses that might have been used once, just because the packaging was damaged, or it wasn’t new, and the employees couldn’t take it (policy), and the store could write any such good off with the distributor, without considering it a loss. I think about how our wanton use of fertilizers has led to massive algal blooms, that consume all oxygen in the shore waters, and lead to massive die-offs of ocean life, and we are not immune either, as the poisons infiltrate the food chain, our water supply, and end up tucked away, nice and safe in the recesses of our bodies, where they can wreck our sperm counts, cause cancer, and deform newborns. I am all for progress, but I want responsible progress. I don’t want to contribute to, to be a part of a culture that so shamelessly and recklessly wastes, poisons, and destroys.

I think about all of this, and then it becomes very hard for me to want to buy anything, beyond what I really need. I wish it was easier to do this, but this culture is kind of a core feature of the systems that are essential to our lives. When I buy my groceries at the store, I take my avocados as they are, I don’t put them in a plastic bag. If I go through the cashier-assisted checkout, they’ll put my avocados in a small plastic bag, if I don’t stop them. Why do they do that? There’s no point to it.

I guess we’ve just totally perverted things. Our way of living is totally out of balance with the natural world. I know that you could consider humans a product of the natural world, and so by extension, it’s impossible for us to do anything that isn’t natural. It’s all natural. So maybe, a better word to use isn’t natural, but healthy. And thinking not just in terms of human health, but in terms of planetary healthy, ecological health. And to think that our health is not tied to the health of the natural systems that we live in, is hubris, right? I’m thinking back to how we can’t see the stars at night. What are we sacrificing in the sake of progress? In the sake of convenience?

I will be thinking about all of this when I go out to buy clothes today. I now have talked myself out of what little desire to do this I had – but the thought of another week of wearing the same outfit is driving me onwards. If you have any thoughts about these issues, because I’m sure I’m not alone in thinking like this, please comment or say something to me. Anything that strikes you or you’d like to bring up.

Anyways, that’s my little Sunday post. I really have to get going on. It is a really beautiful day today. I was just talking about my frostbite, but’s warm enough today that you could almost get away with being out in a t-shirt. At least, I’m sitting outside in a flannel and jeans and feeling a bit warm. There probably won’t be many more days like this until the spring, soon.

I will leave you with this promise – the next post, I am going to tell you the bowl story. Yes, I really will. Whether you’re tired of me talking about it or not, I have to make this promise, for both of us. So I will. Until then!

UPDATE: I went shopping. I bought two pairs of socks. Made in Japan. I found a shirt that I really liked. 100% wool. Made in China. I didn’t buy it. I met one of my English club girls, Green peas, as I was leaving. She’s cute, always laughing. She tried to get me to speak Japanese with her, I wouldn’t do it. They don’t have many opportunities to speak English with a native English speaker, and I’m going to make sure they do it. Also, it’s fun for me to play dumb.

Hello. Good evening.

I am writing this fourth post. It’s not what I imagined I would be writing about.

How these blog entries take shape.. it seems that they are mainly born out of amusement. At least this one definitely is. Amusement and, suffering.

You might think I am talking about the marathon. I’m sure you want to hear about that. And that is an important part of this post, because you need it help understand “The Fall.” As I’ve titled this post, in my life, in the span of ten days, there has been a rise and fall, and they are both related to my physical state.

First, I’ll tell you about the marathon. Did I die? Did I bleed? Cry? Run the entire time? The last one is correct. Surprisingly, the marathon (I shouldn’t really call it that, it wasn’t a marathon, it was 30 km, I’m going to just refer to it as the marathon, although I could also refer to it at the Charrenji Taikai, meaning “Challenge Tournament/Event”, which is what it is called at Ozu High). That was an incredibly long paragraphed insertion.. I’ll start a new sentence. Sorry this is kind of time wasting, but I have to say that I now find that I have an abundance of time of my hands, due to “The Fall.” And I’m having a lot of fun writing that. Unlike the bowl story, I will actually tell you about this, in this very post. So let’s continue.

The “marathon” was fine. Fun. Enjoyable. Not death. Actually, hardly even any suffering. I think this is largely attributable to the fact that I started the race with the first year girls, and specifically, my English club girls, who are all first years. This was much better for me, and my survival, than if I had started with, say, the first year boys, or the athletes, and I was asked if I wanted to join the athlete group, which I thought about for as short as it’s possible to think about something, without not thinking about it at all, and said, “No.” This is because the first year girls, and especially my English club girls, except for Kanochan, are not fast. They were actually far below average, in terms of their finishing times. So in the beginning, which may have been a treacherous time, for an overly excited first time marathon runner, I was shepherded, perhaps protected against my own untrained and incorrect instincts, which would have been, if I had been with the athletes or even the first year boys, to try and keep pace with some of them, and sacrifice a lot of energy, that would have left me coming up empty before the finish.

So the first year girls were slow, and essentially the opposite scenario happened, which was that I went quite slowly in the beginning, and gradually increased speed, until I found myself burning through my abundance of energy at the end, finishing in a sprint with another first year boy, Takemura kun who I think humored me by letting me somewhat close to him, and then ultimately asserting dominance and dusting me at the end.

Highlights from the marathon..

Japanese people have a flexible and useful word – ganbaru. 頑張る This is a fundamental word in the world of the Japanese. This is a very important word. This word is I’m sure used millions of times a day every day in Japan. What does it mean? Ganbaru is flexible, and for that reason it is a little hard to directly translate it. Here are some of the meanings that I’ve just taken from my trusty favorite dictionary: to persevere; to persist; to keep at it; to hang on; to hold out; to do one’s best. To me, these definitions don’t quite capture the feeling of it, because there are many times when someone will say Ganbatte, or ganbattekudasai, which is a command, or a “please ganbaru” when you might wonder why they’re saying it, as you don’t really feel like you need to be told to persevere, or hang in there, because you’re not currently struggling. Maybe what I’m trying to get at is it’s used pretty casually, but it also can have power behind it, and it just depends on the situation. Maybe the Japanese like this word so much because they are a people of persistence, and I do think that they feel like the answer to many of life’s difficulties is to persevere, and never give up (I learned recently of the Japanese proverb, fall seven times and get up eight). This feeling is embodied in other words that the Japanese favor, such as the phrases shouganai, and shikataganai, which means “it can’t be helped” and “there’s nothing we can do about it.” But I am thinking of one of my friends, who feels that Japanese people are sometimes too quick to use these words, who said, when she was told “shouganai” she was thinking, “But yes! Yes, it can be helped!” And it could be that this mindset leads to one putting up with more than they are truly able to bear, or feeling that they do not have the power to change their own circumstances, when they may. And while I’m on this, I’m also thinking about a theme, or an ideology, I’m not entirely sure what you call a thing like this, that came up often in my book, Japanese Fairy Tales. This theme is that of obligation, and I’m thinking specifically of two of the tales. In one, the obligation is towards the neighbor, and in the other, it is towards the step-mom, but in both cases the level of obligation is the same, and it is essentially that one should respect whom they are obliged to, whether the parent, or the neighbor, or perhaps a member of the royal family, and bear all injustices, and oblige all whims and desires, no matter how absurd or unreasonable, willingly and without complaint. In one of the stories, the main character has a special dog, a very good boy, who finds him some gold, and his neighbor wants to borrow the dog and find some gold too, but the dog just finds some buried trash, and the neighbor gets angry and kills the dog, and the main character is just like, “Oh, my dog!” And he’s very sad, but there’s no anger towards the neighbor, who actually killed his dog. And several such things happen, where the neighbor wrongs the main character, and the main character never blames the neighbor, and continues to oblige him because he is, after all, his neighbor, and so he must. And then the main character is rewarded in the end, and the scumbag neighbor gets his just-desserts. In the other story as well, the main character shows unyielding obligation and is rewarded in the end. I’m not sure how old these stories are but they’re quite old, so this is an aspect of the culture that has deep roots, and is probably why Japanese people may put up with more than they maybe should put up with, at times.

That was a tangent, and is not necessary at all for what I wanted to tell you about the marathon – all you really needed to know was that Japanese people have translated Ganbaru into English as “fight.” Which is funny, because that means in all the situations where they want to use ganbaru, but they also want to speak English, they will say “Fight.” And I think that most Japanese people (by now) know that this is a little strange, or at least funny, but they’re not sure what to say instead, and also it generally gets the point across, and so they say, “Fight.” As an example, I may be sitting at my desk in the morning, and a teacher will say to me (at least in the early days when they knew that I generally understood almost no Japanese) “How many classes do you have today?” And I’ll say, “3.” Or 2. Or whatever. Doesn’t matter. Then, they’ll say, “Fight.” And that’s funny, right. Especially when my class schedule for the day consists entirely of playing English Jeopardy. I’m like.. Hase sensei, do you know what I’m doing today? I’m actually playing games all day. I am almost ashamed to say that I am doing nothing close to fighting today. And I say ashamed because these other teachers are not playing games all day, which is also rare for me, but there is no doubt that my workload is significantly lighter than theirs. So.. Japanese people say “Fight.” When they want to say ganbaru, and if they themselves are ganbaruing (ganbatteiru) they will say, “Fighting!” How is this related to the marathon?

As the native English speaker, it is my duty to expose the students to as much English as I can. For this reason, and because it was also very fun, I shouted at the other students, in the first half of the race, when they would pass me, or in the second half, when I would pass them, were things like – “You can do it!” or “Go go go!” or “Yes, great job, keep it up!” Stock motivational boosters like this. And what I would generally get in response was, “Fighting!” Or, “Ok!!” Or, “Bikkuri!” Which is what the students would say when I would stealthily jog up on them and then shout a stock motivational phrase in passing. (in this case it means, “Surprised!!”) As I got increasingly tired, I just decided to adopt what all the Japanese are using, and which is the shortest and easiest stock motivational booster, and that is “Fight!” Although for the larger groups of guys I would generally unleash my whole set of stock phrases. Anyways, I was just starting to unleash my stock motivational phrases, to maybe the three hundredth group of the day a group of four or five boys, and immediately one of them cuts me off and shouts, louder than any other student had responded that day, “NEVER GIVE UP!!!” I was simultaneously impressed and shocked. After so many of the same responses, it just didn’t see something like that coming. This is one of the joys of being an English teacher in Japan. There are times like this where you’re hit with some English that’s totally unexpected, that leaves you wondering, how do you know this? Why do you know this? Where did you learn this? And for me, in this moment in particular.. How did I manage to leave this out of my set of stock motivational phrases? So, from this moment on, which was probably for the last third of the marathon, I said only one thing – “Never give up!”

There are two other sources that come to mind when I think of entertaining English in Japan. One of those is from advertisements, products, T-Shirts, things like this. I can and should write an entire post about this. You could have a whole blog dedicated to this and I’m sure it’s out there. I have many pictures saved of such English. There were two large posters of a pretty lady I saw just a few weeks ago when driving, on the side of Pachinko parlor (a type of gambling establishment that is extremely popular in Japan – they are not arcades but they look like arcades and have tricked me several times, until I was given this bit of advice from a friend, “If it’s big, shiny, and looks like fun, it’s a Pachinko parlor.”) These posters were simply pictures of the pretty lady, with text at the bottom, and the text said, on the first poster, “It’s Nice season. What shall do now?” And on the second, “Let’s stay healthy today!” Which is interesting considering there are not many hobbies you could choose that would be more corrosive to your health than Pachinko.

Perhaps the greatest of the events that made their impression on me during the course of this marathon was one not actually related to running. It was unexpected, small, yellow, and delicious. It was a banana.

It won’t take long to explain this. (Every time I’ve ever written words such as that I have had to go back and delete them.) But really, this was a short and simple problem. I ran two thirds of the race with a partner in crime, Miss Iwamoto (or, translating that English, Origin of the Rock). Origin of the Rock was the only one to survive, or rather the only one that was willing to subject herself to matching my speed, out of the original group of first year girls that I started with. Origin of the Rock was about half my height, and was a good running partner, because she was from Ozu, and from a part that I knew nothing about, being kind of really in the boonies, and as we ran the course, she gave me little bits of knowledge about the neighborhoods, and their names, and local attractions or points of interest. I was glad to have her company, although I was really worried about her for most of this, wondering if she was really overexerting herself in trying to keep pace with me, and I would constantly ask her, are you alright, and she would say, “Daijyoubu, daijyoubu,” (I’m good, I’m good). Finally, when we came to the last major hill, and this baby was steep, she was not daijyoubu, and I did end up leaving her, which was sad for a brief moment, but I came to run, and run I would. But, before that, we had run a good deal of the marathon already, maybe we were around the halfway point, and we came up to a large rest stop. There were several of these stops along the way, manned by teachers, parents, and soccer players who were too valuable to risk being injured. (Ozu High School is one of the strongest soccer schools in Kumamoto – several of the players are from big cities like Tokyo and Osaka, there are probably over 100 students on the team (it’s run like a small army), there is a wall of signed jerseys and cleats by professional players that graduated from Ozu, I know at least one Ozu graduate went to play in the World Cup in 2008, all of these have had some impact on my decision to stay out of the Ozu soccer club) I was told there would be bananas along the way, and I was looking forward to it, to recharge my batteries, although I didn’t need it as much as I thought I would have before I started, because most of the girls running in the marathon had brought treats, and would give them to me, or swap them with each other, throughout the race, which was very wholesome, seeing these girls stop and swap their various candies and crackers with each other (“Do you want a caramel?” “Have some gummies!” “Ooh, you brought oranges? So smart!!”) So we come to this stop, Iwamoto and I, and we have a rest, and I get my banana, and she gets hers, and I promptly devour mine, and she does not promptly devour hers. And we’re hung out there for a bit, gotten a drink, had a rest, and I ask if she’s ready to go, and she says yes, and she still hasn’t eaten her banana. And so I think, ok, she’s saving it for later, provisional banana, got it. And we get started and I say, hey, I can hold that for you if you’d like, since she’s just running with it in her hand, and she already has a fanny pack, so I thought, why not. So from here, on we’re running, running, maybe a few kilometers pass, and at first I don’t mind, but as we go, I realize, I’m starting to get tired of holding this banana. When we get to the next small stop, we have another drink, and I say to her, hey, do you want to eat your banana now? And at this stop there are also bananas, so I’m thinking, this was kind of a waste of energy, carrying this. So I ask her if she wants to eat her banana, and she looks at me and shakes her head. “No,” she says. “It’s a present for you!” And I’m like.. what the hell is this! You’re telling me I carried this banana, all this way, for your sake, and now you’re giving it to me? This was certainly a twist. Did she panic when they were handing out bananas and took one without wanting it? Was her plan to give it to me the entire time? Did she ever have a plan for it at all? I don’t and didn’t have the answer to these questions and I don’t and didn’t need them – I just needed to figure out what I would do with this banana.

I couldn’t eat it – I was full off of the first banana, and off of the various treats I had received from these treat giving high school girls. I didn’t want to risk cramping or being uncomfortably full. My next thought was to set it with the other bananas. It was a perfectly good banana, entirely edible, and just slightly, maybe greatly, heated, from having been clutched by a jogger for thirty or so minutes. I wanted to just place it on the table of this next rest station, with all the other bananas, but there was a problem. The bananas were all set out in row on a table, and were being watched, by a flock of mothers, and there was no way for me to discreetly set it down without a high probability of it being noticed. And Japanese people are picky about their cleanliness, and their fruits, and with the shadow of corona ever-looming in the background, I just couldn’t bring myself to put that banana on the table. I also couldn’t bring myself to throw it away, because it was, after all, a perfectly good banana. I thought about flinging it into the woods, and decided against that too – and so, it appeared, that I was now stuck with this banana, and for the foreseeable future, until I either decided to eat it, or finished the race with it. With this realization solidifying in my mind, and the banana warming in my hand, Iwamoto and I returned to our marathon.

As we’re running, we’re starting to pass many students, who had started before us, but had since gotten too tired, and were now walking it. The students had a variety of strategies in the running the race. My favorite was the strategy adopted by two of my English club girls, one of them being Chinatsu, meaning “1000 summers,” who I call Hamachi, a type of fish. At our first English club meeting, I was getting to know the girls, and was having them do self-introductions, and asking random questions. I asked 1000 Summers what pet she would have, if she could have any animal as a pet, and she said, “A penguin.” And I said, “What would you name it?” And she said, “Ha-ma-chi.” And I said, “How much?” And she said, “Hamachi.” And her friends are giggling. And I thought, alright, I don’t get it, it’s a strange name, must be some kind of inside joke.. and I write down “Wants to have a penguin named How Much,” in my little notebook. Because you see, what I thought this girl was saying to me was “How Much”, pronounced in the way that Japanese will pronounce English when not trying to model correct pronunciation,　ハーマッチ, but what she was actually saying to me, was actual Japanese, はまち, which is a fish. So I wrote down, “How Much,” and another girl sees this and she says, “No, no. Not how much, はまち!”

So that is Hamachi. She has actually since left the English club, for some inferior club that I can’t remember, I think soft tennis (it was months before I knew what this actually was, it’s tennis with a softer ball played on dirt courts). Her English club friend that she was running with, I call Green Peas, because her name is Saya, and saiyaendo means green peas. It’s not all that creative, my nicknames never are, but she likes it, I’m pretty sure. Anyways, Hamachi, Green Peas, and another friend, had adopted something of a HIIT style strategy. HIIT stands for High Intensity Interval Training, which is where you perform a high volume of work for a short period of time, and then rest, and then repeat. They would “sprint” (really just a quickened jog) for an indefinite period, walk, and then sprint again. This did not strike me as a winning strategy for 30 km run, but I didn’t question it, and who knows, maybe it was only phase one of their plan. I don’t know what the other phases were, as I didn’t see them, as I left them behind in the very early stages, but I don’t think they finished too long after me, so they didn’t do that bad. But this HIIT style was especially entertaining for me, because I when first ran up to them they were walking, and I shouted my stock motivational phrases, and they immediately entered into their high intensity state. This only lasted for fifteen or twenty seconds, when then they would resume their walk, and when Iwamoto and I had caught up to them, jogging at our constant pace, I would shout the stock motivational phrases again, and they would enter into another round of high intensity running. This continued for three or four rounds, with Iwamoto and I never changing speed, with them ending in a final sustained burst, and then giving up and falling behind us.

Why I’m even talking about this – student’s strategies, starting off with the banana in my hand, right. Iwamoto and I depart from the checkpoint, banana in hand (my hand), and we’re starting to now pass students who had started off strong, and had since burned out. And these kiddos still had a long way to go. As we pass them, I shout my stock motivational phrases (I guess I should just abbreviate it, SMP). Some of these students are holding their bananas, nourishment for the long journey ahead. As we pass one boy, he sees I’m holding a banana, and he holds up his banana, in solidarity, and says to me, “Yes banana!” We pass another two boys, who seem particularly winded, and I slow down and I ask them how they’re doing, and the one boy is sweating and out of breath, and he says repeatedly to me, “Sugoi, Americajin, sugoi. Sasuga, Americajin.” Which we can translate to, “Incredible, American, incredible. Just as I expected from an American.” Sasuga is a word that you use as like a “Just as I expected” but in a positive way, maybe more like, “I wouldn’t have expected anything less.” So, I’m not sure where or how he formed his image of the average American, but in that moment, to him I must have been living up to it. And I was glad that he had this image of us, and not another, that some others may hold, which is that a large proportion of us are large and in charge (obese). We’re working our way through this procession, overcoming the stragglers, passing a few checkpoints, and we come up to a fork in the road, and lo’ and behold, standing at the corner is my tantosha (supervisor, caretaker, guardian angel) Goto sensei. And in this situation, I would put her into the category of guardian angel, because as soon as I saw her I knew I had found the answer to my banana problem. As we jogged by, without breaking stride, I moved over to her, said, “A gift for you!” And put the banana snugly into her hands. There was no opportunity for questioning, no time for resistance – the banana was in her hands and out of mine in the blink of an eye. As I handed it to her, it struck me just how hot it had become. I think she said thank you, but Iwamoto and I were already making our escape by then. And so, the present had been passed on, and in this way I was relieved of my banana problem.

The bananas were an intimate part of the race. A group of girls, in their finishing dash, came through, triumphantly holding up their hands, and in their hands were bananas. One of the girls had four, I believe, two in each hand, and was holding them up in celebration, like she had just returned from a long and arduous quest in search of the special yellow fruit, and returning to her people victorious.

Goto sensei said to me, this Thursday, “That banana that you gave me became banana bread.” I was happy to hear this. She said something about how hot it was after I had given it to her, and she couldn’t eat it that way. I told her that I was very grateful for her, and she told me that several students after me tried to do the same thing, but she already had one banana, and didn’t need any more. This is a lived embodiment of “early bird gets the worm”, or in this case, “early marathon runner gets to hand their unwanted banana to unsuspecting supervisor.”

Well friends, I have a confession to make. I seem to be getting into a bad habit of doing this, which is to say I’m going to tell you about something, and then not telling you about it. I do not want you to think that I’m not a man of my word. The reason why I do this is because I want to do these things justice, and I’m not always sure how that justice will be done. I’m saying this now so that you are not too disappointed with me when I tell you that I am not going to be able to tell you about “The Fall” tonight. We just don’t have the time. Or the energy. On my part. And I want to do it justice. Of course, it goes without saying that I won’t be telling the bowl story either, and I wonder if I should even stop talking about the bowl story, and just move on, and I have to say I’m somewhat in agreement with you over that, but at this point, I’m in too deep, and I’m going to tell it to you, someday, when all of the other things have been said. But, I have told you about the Triumph, at least, which was the running of the 30 kilometers, with minimal pain and suffering, and that must be enough for this post #4!

Until #五。。Fight!

Update: (Like the picture? This is my favorite plant ever right now. I saw this in a garden in my neighborhood. It’s called 鶏頭、keitou, or silver cock’s comb. The first time I laid eyes on it I audibly gasped.)

Codo

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I spork about frogs.

I spork about flogs.

International Frags 2020

International Flogs 2020

I joined intartnational FROGS 2020.

I spork about flog.

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Frogs like to dance. The frogs are dancing when they listen to the music.

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Yes, recently I have given the students a creative writing assignment. Yes, it was about frogs. Specifically, it was about a character I created, Gobo (the speckled bacteria looking thing, who is named after burdock root, which was what many of the students were calling her back when she had no name) who traveled to Canada for an international frog conference, called International Frogs 2020, to share her discovery with the world, and went to a dance party afterward. I drew up four pictures detailing the story, and had students write about each picture – what Gobo was thinking, feeling, saying, etc, and I was surprised by some of the quality and creativity of their responses. What also surprised me, even more so, was how many ways they could misspell the name of a character when it has been written into the title of the worksheet, and is on the board next to a large drawing of said character. What you have just read is the cream of the crop of their misspellings. The worksheet was titled, “Gobo Goes to Canada”, in large font at the top of the page, and yet we got FIVE Gobo variants: Cobo, Gogo, Goda, Goba, and Codo. I’m thinking about incorporating them into a future worksheet, or the next Ozu Times comic strip (where Gobo made her original appearance), as Gobo’s siblings or something (update: I did this).

The day that I checked these worksheets was one of the days I’ve laughed the most. I mean come on, I spork about flog? Can you say that without laughing? Intartnational FROGS 2020? It’s too good. So all day I was sitting at my desk, trying and failing to stifle my giggling. I couldn’t help it. I need to give them more creative writing prompts.

So that’s been one of many highlights of these past few weeks. Other highlights..

Well, I’ll tell you another story in a minute, but while I’m thinking about it..

These teachers work too much. It’s not a secret that the Japanese work too much, but I’m seeing it firsthand, and it’s rough. Overworking is the norm, it’s expected. Every week multiple teachers will tell me about how they’re working too much and need more sleep, a vacation, whatever. In the past two weeks alone I have had five instances of teachers mentioning that they’re overworking. Here they all are.

Today, I’m talking with a teacher friend, I don’t know her name, I am ashamed to say, and she tells me that she’s very tired, because she was at the school working until 9 last night. She told me, “I need to escape.” And of course we laughed, like all the teachers do when they’re talking about working too much.

On Tuesday, I stopped by Hayashi sensei’s desk to tell her about how I just sprayed some kind of cleaning fluid on my desk and accidentally got them on my grapes, and still tried to eat my grapes, and how god awful it was, and how I had to throw them all away (and I did try to wash them but it was no good), and we had a nice conversation about how Japanese people peel their grapes (they peel their grapes and their apples, crazy I know, although some of their grapes actually have a pretty thick peel) – and actually this is another little story – when I first came here I would eat apples at school and I would eat them like a normal person does, which is to just bite into them and enjoy their crunchy goodness, and everyone would be like, woah, what are you doing, you’re not gonna peel it?? And I was like.. no.. why… would I do that? The peel is like the best part. And that’s how I learned that Japanese people peel their apples, and grapes, and whatever else is peelable. I have also astounded them by eating large raw carrots at my desk (which today got three! teachers to stop at my desk. “Is it your lunch?” “I’ve never seen this.” “Why don’t you cut it?”) and eating a loaf of white bread every day for lunch for two months straight (It got to the point where one teacher was asking me daily, Steven, what’s for lunch? Shokupan? Did you have shokupan? And she already knew the answer, she just wanted to hear me say it, and I would always respond, “Yes, every day shokupan.” And she would throw her head back and laugh.

So.. anyways, I told Hayashi sensei this story (about the grapes), and then she tells me she has a headache, and she is working too much, and I told her that maybe she’s dehydrated, and she told me she has drank two cups of coffee today and that was it, and she holds up this TINY mug, to show me how much coffee she had consumed, and I was like, uhhhh you’re crazy you need to drink some water. And she told me, I don’t have time to go to the fridge (the fridge is on the other side of the staff room from her – it would take about ten seconds to walk there). So I went and got her water for her. And we laughed again, like we always do when we’re talking about overwork.

So that was the second instance.. the third was when I spoke with Uramoto sensei, who told me he was tired, because he is ALWAYS tired, because this man works at the school from like 6 in the morning to 8 at night every day, and has an hour commute to and from the school. Every other time I see him he tells me he is working too much and needs more sleep. And we laugh, like we always do. And this guy is always smiling, he is one of my favorites. He is the head of the teaching staff, which is why he has some of the longest working hours out of all of the teachers.

Fourth instance, last Friday, I was talking with Sanaoka sensei, who is also one of my favorites (I have a lot of favorites). There is something about him that I can’t really explain. He is one of those people who is funny without being aware of it and without any intention of being funny. He is very curious about things, and his demeanor is usually very flat, but not in an off-putting way, more in like a he-just-isn’t-really-fazed-by-anything way, and he has this quality where he simultaneously appears to be both serious and completely unserious at the same time. He is also the tallest Japanese person I know. He is like 6’2″ or 6’3″. I can give you a little story about him to illustrate why he is funny. Kumamon is Kumamoto Prefecture’s official mascot. He is a black, sausage shaped bear, with soulless snake eyes. People love him. Anyways, there is a video of him falling off of a train, when he is trying to walk down the steps to get off the train, and it’s very funny. It’s just a good video. They’re recording a news show where they have Kumamon go around and try new things or show off some aspect of Kumamoto culture or whatever, and he has these two guides that do the talking, and then they have some people who are watching from a set and they put their faces in the corner of the screen and show their reactions (this is typical for a Japanese news/entertainment show). So anyways, Kumamon falls off the train, everyone is like, oh my god!, and Kumamon is rolling around, and doesn’t get up, and they don’t know what to do.. it’s funny. And because I’ve dang talked about it for so long, I feel like I owe you the link, so here you go: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6f4_OEm1bo&ab_channel=bitoshakure. Skip to 1:30 for the falling off the train action, although the first bit is good too. So.. I told Sanaoka sensei about this video, and I told him to watch it, and he said he would. And I asked him every day for two weeks if he watched it, and he always said, “No.” So I stopped asking daily, and asked weekly, and then forgot about it, and at some point after a few months, I remembered, and I said, “Hey did you watch that Kumamon video??” And he said, “Yes. But, no laugh.”

So, back to the whole teachers working too hard thing. I asked Sanaoka sensei last Thursday if he was having a great day, and he said, “No. Not great. Too busy.” And I said, “Well, at least tomorrow is 華金 (pronounced hanakeen)(which is like the Japanese version of TGIF)!” And he said, “No, no 華金.” And I said, “Why not?” And he says, “Hana means ‘happy’.” End of conversation. Well, not really, because then I said, Kanashikeen, meaning sad Friday, and that got some laughs.

This man is working so hard that he sees Friday as a sad day. Or at least, it’s not a happy day, because it’s another day of work for him. It doesn’t matter that it’s the last day in the week, it’s another day of work.

Finally, the fifth.. two weeks ago, all of the teachers had a meeting. My supervisor Gotou sensei said to me, “You know Japanese people are working too much, so recently we had a meeting about working too much.” She said that some government or specialist guy came in and told the teachers how to work less. I thought, this must have been bs, and asked her how it was. She said nothing he told them changes the amount of work they actually have, and that after the meeting, they all had a good laugh, and then stayed an extra hour late that day to finish the work they couldn’t do while they were in the meeting about how to work less.

Actually there’s a sixth. I said good morning to my friend from Shoyo High School’s office, and he was the only one in the office at the time. He is basically fluent in English because he lived in California for several years (he is actually one of three of my Japanese friends who have great English and have lived in California for a number of years). He has told me repeatedly about how much work he is doing. On one weekend, we had two days off, making for a four day weekend, and he came in on three of those days to work overtime, filling out some forms related to coronavirus that students had to submit to the school. So I said to him this morning, good morning, and asked him if he was surviving. He said to me, “It’s too much. If I had known how much work this job was going to be I never would have taken it.” And that’s pretty much how all of our conversations about work go, and I always walk away thinking, jeez.

It’s not just the teachers either.. the students are working too hard. There’s this whole business with cram school (jyuku).. basically sending your middle schooler to like four hours of extra school 3 nights a week plus weekends so that they can do well on their high school entrance exams. I’m like.. do you guys know about diminishing returns? Does this actually work? How do these students survive? I actually didn’t see my host family’s middle school daughter for like 4 months because every time we did something together the daughter was at cram school. Some of these students are also commuting from far away. They might have over an hour of train rides + walking or biking to get to school, then they have club, take an hour to go back home, and then have homework on top of it all. I have had a ridiculous number of students tell me that they get 3,4,5 hours of sleep a night. Those students are suffering. Sometimes as many as one third of the students in a given class are asleep. It’s especially bad at Ozu because Ozu has all the soccer players, who are fatigued from all the practice, but they’re not the only ones who sleep.

I learned about 黒会社 (kurokaisha) recently too. I went bowling with some friends, and one of them mentioned that he didn’t have a job. I asked about it later, and he said that he worked for a 黒会社 in Tokyo, a ‘black company’, which is a company that has terrible working conditions. At least he was smart enough to quit.

So that was a little bit about what I’ve seen of Japanese work culture.. I wanted to tell my BOWL story (not about bowling, but about an actual bowl), but I don’t have time. I can leave you with that little cliffhanger, to give you something to look forward to post #3!

P.S. I have a lot of good bug photos, but uploading here is a pain. It takes wayyy too long. I am thinking about either posting them on Facebook or making a Flickr and putting them there. I will do this someday. Someday..